Slightly Mental

Fight Apathy…Or Don’t

Today was a bit of a nothing day. It wasn’t good, it wasn’t bad. It just was.

I hate nothing days. I always feel like I’ve been short-changed. at least with bad days, they’re bad enough for you to want them to end. And they give you something to mope about(any excuse to lock myself in my bedroom and listen to the smiths). In all seriousness though, days like today kinda suck in a boring, beige kinda way.

I’ve become really apathetic about school lately. Not that that’s anything new because I’ve never really been enthusiastic about it. I’m just caring less than I usually do. I used to try and get my homework done before the due date, now I wonder if there’s any point. I know what I’ll probably end up doing(journalism of some sort) so I’m basically filling in time that is better spent with Doctor Phil and my doona.

Maybe it’s just the uncertainty of next year that’s getting to me. I’ve applied to a schools I really want to get into. But it’s a selective school and I won’t find out until October. This is driving me absolutely insane. And now I’m applying to other schools with all these letters and reports saying how much of a good and diligent student I am. I feel like one huge let down. I’m not a great student. I can bullshit well, and although that might help me in said possible career in journalism, I don’t think it give me entry into any schools. At leat not the ones I want to go to anyway.

And to top it all off my laptop is buggering up. Not that it’s the end of the owrld and i’d hate to sound like a wingey emo teenager, but it is frustrating.